A week ago, it was hurt and sad when I was not allowed to visit my 'previous home' to pick up my social insurance book. I was ordered to receive it outside while I was looking forward to meeting the former colleagues again...
At least I felt good and better when hearing one of the Dutch managers saying this: "It is normal of what Huy is doing. H.. was doing the same when he started his company by offering jobs for more than 30+ people from his former employer. In this world, how many people dared to make the step like them?". It was an excellent message! :)
When I was in between making an important decision about 9 months ago. I had an idea that either taking of this decision or that decision would not lead me in any good feeling... It was one of the biggest dilemmas in life:
- (a) supporting my boss' vision and receiving no support from the people
or
- (b) refusing my boss' vision (then getting no support from him) and receiving the support from the people.
Either choice won't lead me to any 'supported' situation as I need the support from both of those stakeholders to succeed. Then, I decided to quit!
Building a company 'again' is great! In which I will be happier to fail, to learn and to achieve in the coming 10-20-30 years as my principles remain. Yes, at least for the next 10 years and in those 10 years, I will feel much better than staying in 10 years with 'accepted' and 'changing my principles' just because of 'status'?
Will you dare to make a change when you are at the top but you have not been happy with your boss for a year; even to leave off what you created and built with your passion and your heart?
Life was sometimes difficult to predict: one day they did not want me to be there to against their vision; another day they asked me to stay longer just a few days before I left. As said while giving words before leaving the company: "In our life, we should be responsible for our decisions." - I meant WE!
At the end of what have happened, I feel good of making these decisions:
- deciding of not asking to get back the shares that I was granted
- deciding of not taking any bonus for the last year working over there
- deciding of not taking the granted compensations for the sales results (not easy for taking care of bringing foods for the whole company)
- giving most of my used learning budget for another person <it was not a policy to 'pass' to someone but I did it silently to help her learning activities> and it is good for the company that she has returned to contribute back
- deciding of starting 'it' again
And I feel very grateful for the ones who have been helping me greatly with this new adventure! This gives me great energy and motivation to be successful on this.