many times she has been asking me: "do I want that?". I forgot to ask her "Does she truly want that?" if it does, then I should respect her on her choices.
I have been feeling pretty sad these days...
I do know why I have had this feeling...
I need to make a choice: run from the pain by accepting the fact: the reality of our relationship has ended and deal with it by first acknowledging it and not taking that attachment in my mind: she was not and is currently not with me anymore. She can find happiness by herself, even with someone; and I need to accept that.
I will need to sit down and do more of mediations every morning, getting back of my feeling of being good; of course, I know it would not be easy and it is not easy at all. I will try to get "self-happiness" as it is getting more important for me at this stage of my life. I do understand that she has decided on this and she has been working on this as well.
I want to forgive myself for what I have brought the feeling inside and I want to move on to be even a better version of myself.
and yes, I accept that I have truly loved her and this is also what I am doing is to help her as well. all of the good memories will be forever kept! stop being greedy of having those feelings and those moments again as Huy, you need to respect her!
and we will move on...